Obviously, the choices we make will define us for the rest of our lives, my early stages of life were pretty.. weird well you know, like any child who cared much for school? or about what we wore to school. Well actually I was really fanatic about my hair in those days which is pretty weird considering I was pretty much a tomboy then. Yeah, I hated dresses and looking 'dolled up' and wore hoodies and sporty things like Kappa. I keep saying and thinking how much I really miss my childhood and how hard I have to work these days to do well. Its horrible since I don't have an older sibling I could really look up to... well actually that's a lie.
I have a... almost 20 year old sister and I wouldn't really call her a role model so its just me.
My cousin, every time me and her see each other have this saying 'Middle children are adopted' its just a figure of speech, I'm not actually adopted... and I think I'm pretty sure of that! But yeah its just how we are I guess, first borns have a more special place in their parents hearts and the youngest, last borns are.. obvious the baby of the family. I always see this in my mind and I don't know why, I shouldn't really though, so as I am the middle child I am more... mature (sumujdhar as my dad would say, in his language) I just feel that is a big responsibility for me. my older sister is sort of just wandering around places with no future for her career wise so my parents don't do anything about it.
So why has it always got to be me?
Seriously? I don't want this anymore.
I wish I could have a long holiday and not come back to this.
I don't know exactly what I'm trying to run away from but its just too much for me to carry.
Give it to someone else! PLEASE.
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