Monday, 3 May 2010

Confidence *sigh*

I wish I had the confidence I have now.
When I was younger I was a really shy kid and I hated myself for it, even being around my over big family I was a very shy kid, sat at the back, didn't join in anything, didn't say anything unless it was to my sisters or parents.
I'm sure things would have changed dramatically if I had the confidence back then.
When I started primary school, reception, which was the first year of the school.
I was a very quiet kid, I never spoke to anyone and when I needed to speak to the teacher, I whispered in their ear. When you don't have the confidence, you didn't have many friends.
I could still remember myself by myself at lunch times walking around in circles, ugh I hate myself for not doing anything about it, yet its my parents fault too for not getting me involved in any outside of school activities.
I think I should mention that I did make friends eventually who were great and no I was never bullied.
It makes me miserable to think I didn't have confidence unlike all my cousins who had plenty, I had zilch. I hate myself for it.
Course now, I have more confidence than I have ever had before, not afraid to say anything anymore, that I'd have to thank my friends, if you can't be wild with your friends, who can you be wild with?
But not that much that I could do anything drastic, I know somewhere inside me is still that shy 6 year old.
Even though I'm too young to think about it but I did remember saying to myself 'When I have kids, I'll make sure they don't turn out shy like I was'

One of the key things in life is confidence, if you have that, you'll go far and I know it.

3 comments:

  1. Hi SammyZ, its me Bella. At last am able to post a comment!! May I call you Sam? Or you prefer sammy? I really like your blog.....and so I am following you!
    I read all your posts and would like to comment on them-
    1st I too love chocolates and i don’t like too cold or too hot climate…it has to be moderate…I like it to be cloudy and a tiny bit cool. As you said you wonder about life after death…I too wonder about it sometimes! It freaks me out though!!hehehe….
    Am not a Miley Cyrus fan…but I like a few songs of hers. I love Edward Cullen and Robert Pattinson is damn handsome according to me! Photography is one of my hobbies and I love clicking snaps from my cell phone too. Am planning to put some snaps in my blog soon.
    I don’t hate dogs but I don’t like them either…I hope you understand what I mean! You arent old! Your are just 17!!! Look at me….am a year older than you….18….! when I was a kid even I was shy and hated it! Now am confident…though a tiny part of shyness is still there in me!
    Anyways in one of your posts you mentioned that you went for an Indian movie with your family….was it “3 idiots”?? (just curious!)

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  2. Hey Bella, yeah call me whatever, I don't mind.
    Haha, cool we sort of have the same interests which is awesome.
    Yes you are right, Robert Pattinson is very hot. He pawns Taylor lautner if you ask me, hate the guy.
    Yeah, it was 3 idiots, very good movie, loved it.

    -sz

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  3. i guessed about that movie....when you said...all iz well in one of your post!

    we do have similar interests....its good to know someone like that...

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