thoughts

Last night all of a sudden I was asked about my school holidays and realised my dad was planning a holiday and hes been back what? 3 days? Yeah, left like 2 months ago.
Well its his home country and of course why would you want to live in a completly different country where everything is seen from a different cultural aspect?
Especially it being England, its hard, I understand why my dad wants to go back.
But something I didn't expect him to mention was a trip 'Europe trip' okay thats great I mean I have always wanted to explore the world but on my own. Or with a friend.
I don't know but my dad was saying how about a trip to europe if I didn't want to go with him to his home country but somewhere with my mum and sisters, I didn't want that, I think I'll save the world tour trip for when I'm in university, hopefully I will get in of course.
Lately I have been proper stressed out, I don't think I am studying as much which is really bring me down but I have nothing and need to really stop being so lazy!!
Ugh its these Japanese shows I'd go on the laptop and say 'Oh yeah let me watch one episode and I'll do some studying then' but end up wasting my whole computer time because my laptop is big fat pile of crap that shuts down when I try to complete one episode!!!!
If you want to acheive anything then studing is essential and I'll be sure to hope my sister does well and not make the same mistake like I did in my first year in GCSE's this is my second and why do I have a feeling I'll be doing another year of GCSE's??
Failure, I am.
Sucks big time and I am trying its just I think I am become more stressed out, my hairs falling out!! Joke about the hair lol. But yeah I am stressed.
As mentioned about my shyness oh my gosh!! I cannot be heard in my own classroom!
AH. Im a quiet person and when I try and give my answers I get overspoken by someone else so that noone can hear me!! That annoyed me.