Saturday, 14 June 2014

If Only Life Had Meaning

It's probably what most people want in life, for their lives to have some sort of meaning, that value of importance which is rare to see in some people. Unless your rich - because then people will care, whether its just to use that person or because they are important to a company. Obviously there are a lot of TV shows (namely American) where rich people are portrayed to have a huge amount of problems (per episode) and those problems can get overlooked with money. In the real life, it doesn't seem so realistic. Obviously these shows aren't real, that's what makes them so interesting to watch!

Movies that have the words 'based on a true story' at the beginning tend to be of a horror genre but they lack the excitement a fictional movie possess and most of the time they leave the story unfinished which usually leaves me with crushed dreams that this story will never live to see daylight again because nobody knows how the story ends up. That is really sad.

Most of the time I seriously question my existence, and what my purpose would be after my existence on planet earth, because I'll tell you what it feels like its going to be like for me... nothing. Another life is lost big deal. And I don't want that sort of life for myself, I want my life to have some meaning, some existence to people, and that can't be accomplished if I sit around for 4 hours catching up on new shows like Suits (great show, even if I don't know all the fancy lawyer terms) to fill up this empty hole in my social life.

I'm not saying I sit around and wait for things to be handed to me on a silver platter, because well, lets be honest, I am not rich enough to get that sort of privilege just yet (yet!). I apply for positions in hope of filling that hole in my life and all I can do is wait, because life is not like the dramas, you can't win a job by being sassy or having financial help, its about doing it the correct way and going through the longwinded process of going to university £9000 a year only to not be taught anything new but developing what you already know (nonsense).

Then again I'm not rich so I don't know how that class works, but I am excited to find out that's for sure.