I'm pretty sure I was meant for the countryside life, now I don't mean farming or cowboy stuff but more on the lines of living by a beach or in the middle of nowhere just to feel free.
I always look outside my window and take in the air that surrounds me, even looking at the city lights from the distance. But the lights that I really want to see but cannot are the real lights in the sky (by that I mean stars).
From my last post y'all know I am intrigued by the moon and stars. All I get to see are the 3 stars that appear in a straight line, a really bright star and just random smaller ones, however if I look REAL hard on a good clear day in England, very vaguely I can see much more stars. Or I am just hallucinating. Wanting to see what I never will in England. Reason why this country sucks, beyond other reasons.
Another thing which I have mentioned before is that I really want to travel - to see the natural beauty that god (or for all you nerds the Big Bang theory) has created.
I know there are people who really don't care about any of this (my whole family) which makes me feel even more... alone? I don't know if that would be the right word but I shall stick with it as it would come close.
I'm pretty sure I'm just stuck with these lame dreams which I do pray will come true but I feel it won't, my future shows me nothing yet that I am certain of, which annoys and scares me.
