I'm pretty sure I was meant for the countryside life, now I don't mean farming or cowboy stuff but more on the lines of living by a beach or in the middle of nowhere just to feel free.
I always look outside my window and take in the air that surrounds me, even looking at the city lights from the distance. But the lights that I really want to see but cannot are the real lights in the sky (by that I mean stars).
From my last post y'all know I am intrigued by the moon and stars. All I get to see are the 3 stars that appear in a straight line, a really bright star and just random smaller ones, however if I look REAL hard on a good clear day in England, very vaguely I can see much more stars. Or I am just hallucinating. Wanting to see what I never will in England. Reason why this country sucks, beyond other reasons.
Another thing which I have mentioned before is that I really want to travel - to see the natural beauty that god (or for all you nerds the Big Bang theory) has created.
I know there are people who really don't care about any of this (my whole family) which makes me feel even more... alone? I don't know if that would be the right word but I shall stick with it as it would come close.
I'm pretty sure I'm just stuck with these lame dreams which I do pray will come true but I feel it won't, my future shows me nothing yet that I am certain of, which annoys and scares me.
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
Saturday, 15 September 2012
I heart moon!
I am a very big fan of astronomy, if I wasn't going into the medical profession, I would most definitely have gone for astronomy.
It's something about the whole thing I find really interesting.
When I look up to the sky, hoping to at least in the worst country in the world to see anything amazing look at the moon and I can stare at it for ages and feel fascinated and happy with myself.
Fantastic pictures that surface on the Internet and look so incredibly beautiful that we live in a world where there is always something to see when you look outside your window. Sometimes I wish I had a super duper high definition camera to be able to take awesome photos and put them on my blog so I can show you what I see!! However all I have is a I believe 2mp camera and all you would see is a white dot and black background like this.
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It's something about the whole thing I find really interesting.
When I look up to the sky, hoping to at least in the worst country in the world to see anything amazing look at the moon and I can stare at it for ages and feel fascinated and happy with myself.
Fantastic pictures that surface on the Internet and look so incredibly beautiful that we live in a world where there is always something to see when you look outside your window. Sometimes I wish I had a super duper high definition camera to be able to take awesome photos and put them on my blog so I can show you what I see!! However all I have is a I believe 2mp camera and all you would see is a white dot and black background like this.
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Does not look as great huh?
I have researched about astronomy courses and well Maths is a requirement so that was a big downer.
No biggie, I'll just continue to look at the sky like a moron while my sisters and neighbors wonder what a freak I am for making weird noises. Har de Har. Peace and love home brothers.
Can someone take me to hawaii please, I heard the sky is amazing there
Thursday, 29 March 2012
Just a dream
Everyday people come in and out of that hospital, the amount of impact the doctors and nurses have on their patient is simple indescribable. This is one of the reasons why every single day of my life up to now I've strived off desperation of yearning to succeed this unfulfilled dream.
Hoping to take care and show my passion to my mother and father, hoping they would be with me every step of the way.
It always takes an 'accident' before you really, and I mean really look at the big picture, bringing up "what ifs" and "buts". It's funny how the only thing you can hear are ambulance sirens.
Wishing you can change the past so there will be a brighter income, hoping you will get super powers so you can take away all the horrible things away and throw them in the bin, or even worse give them to yourself so they don't have to feel the pain anymore but rather you do and suffer in silence, because you care enough to do that, end of.
Praying and praying and that's all that we can do keeping our faith into the only people who can fix what happens to be wrong with them, doctors.
I want to be them because instead of waiting in cues and driving around looking for a parking space at the busiest road in town and not being able to go with them for moral support, I can magically cure them. That's my dream.
But I have a feeling that this dream will and forever will be just a dream at the back of my head, although I was looking forward to learning ways to look after people in my care universities don't see that.
Hoping to take care and show my passion to my mother and father, hoping they would be with me every step of the way.
It always takes an 'accident' before you really, and I mean really look at the big picture, bringing up "what ifs" and "buts". It's funny how the only thing you can hear are ambulance sirens.
Wishing you can change the past so there will be a brighter income, hoping you will get super powers so you can take away all the horrible things away and throw them in the bin, or even worse give them to yourself so they don't have to feel the pain anymore but rather you do and suffer in silence, because you care enough to do that, end of.
Praying and praying and that's all that we can do keeping our faith into the only people who can fix what happens to be wrong with them, doctors.
I want to be them because instead of waiting in cues and driving around looking for a parking space at the busiest road in town and not being able to go with them for moral support, I can magically cure them. That's my dream.
But I have a feeling that this dream will and forever will be just a dream at the back of my head, although I was looking forward to learning ways to look after people in my care universities don't see that.
Monday, 5 March 2012
Say it, don't spray it.
There can be so many bad habits out there of course we have all seen some at one point.
However, the worst habit that are done by both genders but are seen more in hardcore men, spitting.
It is just a gross thing and they spit at such distance. Fact, it's done more by smokers, not all though.
I have this vague memory when I was in primary school and we were on a school trip to an awesome place in Wales, and so a girl sat on the other side of me must of been car sick or something - that's what I initially thought. She carried a plastic bag in which you would normally put your sandwiches in and... She just kept spitting in the bag!! How gross, a bag full of spit.
I didn't why she was spitting in the bag and not swallowing her own saliva but I couldn't really ask that since her mum was always coming with her on these trips.
It just made my perception of spitting to a very down low to the ground score.
I don't think saliva should of been invented, but then again we need it to break down our foods in our mouth, yeah I learned that in science.
Someone should invent a.. Spitting bag. Actually no! A stick should be given to the authority so whoever they see spit gets hit with a stick. Oh how lame of me. But I think that it's against the law to spit in some places. Imagine it, we walk around our neighborhood but really we are walking in a pool full of dried up spit.
However, the worst habit that are done by both genders but are seen more in hardcore men, spitting.
It is just a gross thing and they spit at such distance. Fact, it's done more by smokers, not all though.
I have this vague memory when I was in primary school and we were on a school trip to an awesome place in Wales, and so a girl sat on the other side of me must of been car sick or something - that's what I initially thought. She carried a plastic bag in which you would normally put your sandwiches in and... She just kept spitting in the bag!! How gross, a bag full of spit.
I didn't why she was spitting in the bag and not swallowing her own saliva but I couldn't really ask that since her mum was always coming with her on these trips.
It just made my perception of spitting to a very down low to the ground score.
I don't think saliva should of been invented, but then again we need it to break down our foods in our mouth, yeah I learned that in science.
Someone should invent a.. Spitting bag. Actually no! A stick should be given to the authority so whoever they see spit gets hit with a stick. Oh how lame of me. But I think that it's against the law to spit in some places. Imagine it, we walk around our neighborhood but really we are walking in a pool full of dried up spit.
Wednesday, 29 February 2012
Yes, I'm weird like that.
When you are fortunate to be given things, do you beg for more or hold back?
It is one or the other in any case, right?
Well in this case I hold back. I am very fortunate to get things that I may ask for when I favor it. But why do my parents still feel the need to hand me more things?
There are 3 children in the household and I have the most gadgets. Now, I don't want to sound like I am bragging because I'm not the type to show off my possessional belongings because well... I'm not five years old but I just want to say how lucky I am to have the parents I do, even if we are not the type of family to show our love for one another, it's just there.
The reason I bring it up is because my birthday is approaching (4th march) and my parents as always ask what I want and I found that question confusing. It was only a few months back that I received a car and for them to want to splurge on an iPhone 4s on me is madness.
Now, we aren't a poor family but nor are we insanely rich, more average than anything else.
So I am in that situation of wanting it but.. Not wanting them to waste money on something I don't necessarily need.I mean I have a phone why bother on getting a new one. Right?
Question: what would you/ do you do?
It is one or the other in any case, right?
Well in this case I hold back. I am very fortunate to get things that I may ask for when I favor it. But why do my parents still feel the need to hand me more things?
There are 3 children in the household and I have the most gadgets. Now, I don't want to sound like I am bragging because I'm not the type to show off my possessional belongings because well... I'm not five years old but I just want to say how lucky I am to have the parents I do, even if we are not the type of family to show our love for one another, it's just there.
The reason I bring it up is because my birthday is approaching (4th march) and my parents as always ask what I want and I found that question confusing. It was only a few months back that I received a car and for them to want to splurge on an iPhone 4s on me is madness.
Now, we aren't a poor family but nor are we insanely rich, more average than anything else.
So I am in that situation of wanting it but.. Not wanting them to waste money on something I don't necessarily need.I mean I have a phone why bother on getting a new one. Right?
Question: what would you/ do you do?
Saturday, 18 February 2012
I be a London-er.
After all these years of being grown up in England never have I ACTUALLY experienced the London life, up until this day. I have stepped foot in London before but I don't think going to Southall in London would count since my mother is the one who demands these trips on a yearly basis and buys Asian clothes for my older sister. Me? I have no use there whatsoever.
Now, going to London was really for business not actually pleasure but since I arrived a day early I decided to do some sight seeing.
I was given an Oyster card (a card for transportation?) and BOY! Those things are amazing, how can any other city function better without them? Living in my home town is a nightmare with transportation but over in London? BEEP your in (obviously you need to top-up in advance). I took the underground tube station for the first time which was exciting for me.. besides the fact that some chinese guy (I love da chinese people) was staring at me, making the first tube ride a little comfortable since I had no idea where I could look.
So I made it after 2 rides and arrived at the tower of London, it was great but holy cow, the drinks there were expensive, almost £2 for a small bottle of drink. But I was thirsty. :(
Yes so, the bridge was blue, pretty blue.
The sad thing was, I went alone, I had no-one to go with, making the whole journey so dry and boring.
Like I mentioned, the trip was purely business, and the people I was living with were working so I went to the capital city, ALONE.
After, I made to to the whole Big Ben, Oxford Street, Picadilly shin dig.
And finally, I WENT TO GO VISIT THE QUEEN. (You should of seen the grin on my face)
Actually like any normal citizen, her house. It was pretty. Big.
After the whole sight seeing like any other tourist, I went back home.
But got lost.
From all the travelling, it made my passion for travelling abroad even stronger.
I'll just remember to take someone with me, next time.
Want to go together? Hop along.
Friday, 2 December 2011
Racist..!
This is quite a touchy subject for me but yup, racism is the subject on this post. Shopping around town you know nothing new really, I saw something I liked and there were two girls next to me doing there own thing, not to interupt whatever they were doing I reached over to look at something but then put it back as it didn't look that nice after, I walked away and I heard one of the girls say something rude that pretty much describes me in my colour of skin. It wasn't any racist words but something that implied to be rude. Some of you may be thinking, big deal move on from it. But you see, I'm the type of person who can't just get over it the next second, I overanalyze the situation making it hard on myself. (I'm lame like that)
So, these types of people fall under that one category and living in England you tend to see a lot of them. They confirm the stereotype they have been known for and I honestly don't like these type of people because you know they will ALWAYS have something to say about your race when you walk past them on the streets.
Now I'm not sure that these people are of the same colour, and I'm not going to blame the whole country because of those people. I'm not saying I'm perfect either but it's just not right on anyone to hear hurtful things about you, I hate any type of bullying and those stereotypes only make it worse for themselves, gah why can't they be extinct.
So, these types of people fall under that one category and living in England you tend to see a lot of them. They confirm the stereotype they have been known for and I honestly don't like these type of people because you know they will ALWAYS have something to say about your race when you walk past them on the streets.
Now I'm not sure that these people are of the same colour, and I'm not going to blame the whole country because of those people. I'm not saying I'm perfect either but it's just not right on anyone to hear hurtful things about you, I hate any type of bullying and those stereotypes only make it worse for themselves, gah why can't they be extinct.
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
Feeling awkward?
I don't know whats wrong with me (lol) but I hate it when i am (FORCED) made to wear cultural clothes. Not really something to blog about but its something on my mind.
When I was on holiday, obviously my cultural clothes were everywhere to be seen, people where them on the streets and my little cousin wears them most of the time.
To the point.
It was a cultural celebration and well.. we had to wear those clothes, when I was going out with my cousins, at bowling, and cinema.
YEAH!
Picture me with, Asian clothes and CLOWN SHOES! (I am referring to bowling shoes) its just not right.
By heart, I am the tomboy waiting to stay alive, and well it was a weird, awkward disaster.
Just saying.
Lame post, I know, sorry. :D
University applications are coming close to the deadline, wish/pray for/me good LUCK!!!!!!
(I need it)
:)
When I was on holiday, obviously my cultural clothes were everywhere to be seen, people where them on the streets and my little cousin wears them most of the time.
To the point.
It was a cultural celebration and well.. we had to wear those clothes, when I was going out with my cousins, at bowling, and cinema.
YEAH!
Picture me with, Asian clothes and CLOWN SHOES! (I am referring to bowling shoes) its just not right.
By heart, I am the tomboy waiting to stay alive, and well it was a weird, awkward disaster.
Just saying.
Lame post, I know, sorry. :D
University applications are coming close to the deadline, wish/pray for/me good LUCK!!!!!!
(I need it)
:)
Thursday, 29 September 2011
UNI this, UNI that
Uni = university
So this is my final year in college and I am extremely happy over this fact, I feel like I am ready for a change to happen in my life, but anything can happen between now an October which is just a few days away and our deadline for this university shin dig. It's one of those important moments in our lives that we want people everywhere to know about, I know I do because I will be the first person in my family to ever do so. Getting everything jam packed into a year will definitely be a hard task, but I know I try my best, who knows for all you British people out there who are planning on also going to university next year you will be lucky enough to be seeing me around town. Haha I'm kidding I aint nobody special. I have not really figured out which part of England I will be going to (any which will accept me really!) but I don't think it matters, just as long as it has my course, right?
Anyway whatever happens, I'll be sure to keep you posted. :)
MUSIC TIME! okay so I'm not overly obsessed with the Korean/Japanese music anymore but yes I do listen to it still. I listen to this song through an iPhone game.
Brett dennen - Heaven. it's different which I like but make sure if you listen to it that it doesn't include the girl in it.
Ciao for now!
So this is my final year in college and I am extremely happy over this fact, I feel like I am ready for a change to happen in my life, but anything can happen between now an October which is just a few days away and our deadline for this university shin dig. It's one of those important moments in our lives that we want people everywhere to know about, I know I do because I will be the first person in my family to ever do so. Getting everything jam packed into a year will definitely be a hard task, but I know I try my best, who knows for all you British people out there who are planning on also going to university next year you will be lucky enough to be seeing me around town. Haha I'm kidding I aint nobody special. I have not really figured out which part of England I will be going to (any which will accept me really!) but I don't think it matters, just as long as it has my course, right?
Anyway whatever happens, I'll be sure to keep you posted. :)
MUSIC TIME! okay so I'm not overly obsessed with the Korean/Japanese music anymore but yes I do listen to it still. I listen to this song through an iPhone game.
Brett dennen - Heaven. it's different which I like but make sure if you listen to it that it doesn't include the girl in it.
Ciao for now!
Wednesday, 27 July 2011
Holiday!
Yes the holidays have arrived and while being in England enjoying what we call a moody weather was good, you know a little rain and a little sunshine but now I havn't seen a drop of rain since I have arrived. Except for a very sticky atmosphere with very hot air.
Well I don't know what to say right now, its dead boring here and I'm just here to visit from family and friends here. But here is that awkward moment when you have a large number of family members houses to visit and you have to visit each one of them going from room to room (and its a big house) not looking forward to it.
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