The Host

If you're into the whole sci-fi, aliens scenario then you'll probably like this book well I'm not into reading about aliens either but this book offers so much more than just that, it has romance, adventure, emotional parts and did I mention ROMANCE?! It's one of the key things I love to read about when I'm reading any book.
When your first reading the book you'd think 'oh this is boring' but as you keep reading, it starts to pick up until you can't stop reading it anymore and when you have to put the book down, you start thinking about the book 'oh whats going to happen next??' my personal thoughts exactly. It's written by our very own Twilight.. maker - Stephanie Meyer.
These is no resemblance between the book which I am thankful for actually the only thing which is the same between Twilight Saga and The Host is that in both the books, these is a character called Jared. But I'm not talking about Twilight here so I'll shut up about it.
The host is one of those few books that I would love to sit down and read again and I have about four times thinking about reading it for the fifth but I have not time for that :(( *Awww*
The main character who is some sort of species develops all sorts of emotions and I love how the ending brings the species and the humans together.
The ending I should add was rather disappointing not that I didn't enjoy it, it's just one of those books that deserves a sequel to continue on, it gets you thinking what will happen next. She has written a book for some girl named Bree from the twilight saga but the book I really want from her right now is Midnight sun or The Host Sequel!
Anyway, if you have not read it and have read twilight then I suggest you must read it.

Prone to bad luck

I believe there is such thing as 'bad luck' and yeah it may be because I seem to have it, nothing has turned around every time something bad happens to me, it's like i'm always getting picked on. Today for instance, as I was just about to start my exam, well I was filling in the beginning of the paper. name ect. and then the fire alarm bell rang which meant we all had to stand outside for about 10 minutes, someone said that if we had started our exams then they would of cancelled the exam and stuck with our predicted results which I would of been ecstatically happy with but no, as soon as I came back into the exam all, I think I was a bit put off as I didn't feel I did well as of when I did it in January.
To me, I think my life is pretty unfair at this stage of life, I feel as if I could give up my whole education if I don't achieve the grades I wanted, but then again, I worked so hard for this and to find out I didn't do as well will just be a big disappointment, I don't want that.
And it's not just my school life, It's home life too, wherever I go, bad luck follow's my like a virus.
2010 is not my year, i got off to an okay start but it just went downhill from there, I mean I got my grade C for English and then fate took it away from me.
It's official, I hate 2010.
Bring on 2011 ALREADY!!


Two exams done, Two more to unfortunately to do
All I can say is, wish me luck. *Forces myself to smile*

thoughts

Last night all of a sudden I was asked about my school holidays and realised my dad was planning a holiday and hes been back what? 3 days? Yeah, left like 2 months ago.
Well its his home country and of course why would you want to live in a completly different country where everything is seen from a different cultural aspect?
Especially it being England, its hard, I understand why my dad wants to go back.
But something I didn't expect him to mention was a trip 'Europe trip' okay thats great I mean I have always wanted to explore the world but on my own. Or with a friend.
I don't know but my dad was saying how about a trip to europe if I didn't want to go with him to his home country but somewhere with my mum and sisters, I didn't want that, I think I'll save the world tour trip for when I'm in university, hopefully I will get in of course.
Lately I have been proper stressed out, I don't think I am studying as much which is really bring me down but I have nothing and need to really stop being so lazy!!
Ugh its these Japanese shows I'd go on the laptop and say 'Oh yeah let me watch one episode and I'll do some studying then' but end up wasting my whole computer time because my laptop is big fat pile of crap that shuts down when I try to complete one episode!!!!
If you want to acheive anything then studing is essential and I'll be sure to hope my sister does well and not make the same mistake like I did in my first year in GCSE's this is my second and why do I have a feeling I'll be doing another year of GCSE's??
Failure, I am.
Sucks big time and I am trying its just I think I am become more stressed out, my hairs falling out!! Joke about the hair lol. But yeah I am stressed.
As mentioned about my shyness oh my gosh!! I cannot be heard in my own classroom!
AH. Im a quiet person and when I try and give my answers I get overspoken by someone else so that noone can hear me!! That annoyed me.

Confidence *sigh*

I wish I had the confidence I have now.
When I was younger I was a really shy kid and I hated myself for it, even being around my over big family I was a very shy kid, sat at the back, didn't join in anything, didn't say anything unless it was to my sisters or parents.
I'm sure things would have changed dramatically if I had the confidence back then.
When I started primary school, reception, which was the first year of the school.
I was a very quiet kid, I never spoke to anyone and when I needed to speak to the teacher, I whispered in their ear. When you don't have the confidence, you didn't have many friends.
I could still remember myself by myself at lunch times walking around in circles, ugh I hate myself for not doing anything about it, yet its my parents fault too for not getting me involved in any outside of school activities.
I think I should mention that I did make friends eventually who were great and no I was never bullied.
It makes me miserable to think I didn't have confidence unlike all my cousins who had plenty, I had zilch. I hate myself for it.
Course now, I have more confidence than I have ever had before, not afraid to say anything anymore, that I'd have to thank my friends, if you can't be wild with your friends, who can you be wild with?
But not that much that I could do anything drastic, I know somewhere inside me is still that shy 6 year old.
Even though I'm too young to think about it but I did remember saying to myself 'When I have kids, I'll make sure they don't turn out shy like I was'

One of the key things in life is confidence, if you have that, you'll go far and I know it.

Ah dunno.

If you ever thought 'oh I hate my life' guaranteed you'd find someone who has an even worser life than your own. Trust me. Same thing happen to me, yeah I shouldn't hate my life but then again I was having a bad day, a friend of mine was telling me about her life and how she has no freedom, parents from hell, normal stuff a teenaged girl wouldn't want.
Under the circumstances, I would of traded my life with another friends but when she said to me 'Wanna swap familys?' I was like No.
I got me thinking, compared to her family, mine wern't as bad, sure I didn't get everything I want but who does? Poor girl has nothing to look forward to as she gets home.
Last few months have been the worse yet, stupid exam board mucking everything up ruining my only chance to acheive my grade!!
OCR suck.

music

I have a guitar and a keyboard and have no idea how to play both. I could get some tunes out of them but never know how to actually play them, like where the C... note(?) is and basic things like that.
When I was younger, I remember having flute lessons! Oh wow do I regret taking those, the only one thing I have been interested in is the guitar and I was annoyed when my younger cousin bought one before me but.. hers is pink so I couldn't complain I mean PINK?!! REAALY?!?
Sorry. I hate pink.
And yeah blah blah I'm a girl.
I was a real tomboy when I was younger and my aunty hated me for it. Only because I kept wearing these same dark green combat trousers and she really wanted to burn them, but hey they were comfortable.
I have no idea why but I'm really into sad music.
I was watching Glee the other day and during the end of the episode they had this dramatic ending... well song it was amazing because they were crying during the song which may sound corny but it really emotional that I wanted to cry.
I can remember the first ever film I actually cried in and it wasn't some childrens cartoon, and its not an old film, Click, starring Adam Sandler, I love his work and when he was dieing in the rain, Ijust cried... quietly. Not full on tears but a few tears. But then the moment passed. And so did I.
Now whenever anything is dramatically sad I feel the need to let out some tears and I hate it.
Okay, so I started with talking about music now I'm talking tears? Yeah, I can sometimes get off track.

I don't tend to blog much, at first I thought hell yeah blogging could be fun, letting it all out and telling people things ect. but I've realised I don't really have so much time on my hands to blog all the time so I guess I'll do it from time to time, whenever that is(!)
I've been meaning to change my backround picture because I don't like keeping things for too long but its hard.

Pets? Gross.

Even though im not a huge fan of animals I do feel for them, like now for instance its snowing again, what a big suprise and on either side of me I have neighbours who have pet cats who scare me every morning by just sitting there by the window while I walk at the edge of the road, keeping my distance wondering if it will pounce at me and scratch me!!!
Back to my point, the poor kitty (did I actually say that? Gross.) Was outside the house keeping his tail off the frozen ground eating crap off of the floor but hey! Why should I care? Its not my responsibility.
And plus those nasty buggers keep taking a dump in our garden, that answers how the plants or whatever you want to call it grow so fast!

Oh! And dont even get me started about dogs I mean whats with them coming up to you and sniffing you up? What are they going to find? Meat?

...

-18 degrees or more over here, and I cant say I like it. Schools have been closed everywhere and its hard leaving the house when noone wants to come out. Its my friend birthday today and the good friend I am I brought her a present... A taylor l. Poster! But its a shame ima have to wait till monday to give in to her. For new years I went bowling with some friends and im afraid to say I came last even if my technique was all right. On the other hand my friend scored a perfect game but threw the bowling ball like it was some line of cricket ball!
Al iz well, you learn something new everyday!

August Rush

If you've seen this movie then you'd know what I'm talking about, even if it is the bizarre way one finds their parents, but the way the music is portrayed I loved it and I loved it so much that I actually went out and bought a guitar, well I've always wanted a guitar I remember my younger brother having one of those fake guitars that are so small whenever he wasn't around I'd just play on it trying to make so cool tunes, and now I have my own its black! The movie is pretty old (2007 old!) but only have I'd been recommended it by a friend. The lead character Freddie Highmore plays the character so well but I still see him as Charlie Bucket from Willy Wonka movie. Speaking of that movie... Johnny Depp! Don't get me started! ♥

Oh dear

Theres nothing worse than starting a new job and going to the training with a group full of other people some of which knew eachother and not make any friends. That was a big disappointment for me only because I just wanted to make some new friends but there really was not a single person I felt a connection with... Well There was someone sat next to me but I got an evil vibe of her as soon as I looked down only to realise it was her bag annoying me every second and saw her stare at me for a good 5 seconds. Funnily enough my old best friend who I haven't seen for a year now since moving school was at the same place as I was and when I heard her name call out I was quite glad to see her! I had fun catching up with her and I did miss her. I finished working last night and let me tell you my whole body aches from carrying clothes, shoes and worse... coats! heavy heavy coats!

Merry Christmas!!
And a happy new year!♫
I don't do christmas but I was on facebook and everyones in a happy mood, is this due to the pressies? Probably, but maybe its because its the one day of year where everyones at home eating alot of junk spending quality time with their family. I hope you all get what you wanted. Now I have to work again tomorrow for four hours no breaks and because its the first day of the sale its going to be hectic no doubt, but I hope I can manage, I had till training too and that was something.. I was giving change to a man who was buying something and accidently the pound went through one of the holes where the security pins go in, luckily I knew where it had fell and gave it back to him and said "Sorry I'm new" :)